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NOW OR NEVER
 
One of the most important things I have recently discovered is that there IS MOST DEFIANTLY a lesson on everything! I have had to learn one of the more difficult lessons recently and that was letting go, of the past and not only that but of my own insecurities... When a loved on passed on or departs its never really easy... and there is no concrete way of dealing with it. However the one certainty is time... This heals all.. it is what you do with that time that effects the lessons and experiences. I had many resentments and anger as there were many things I promised and never done or many things I had done that caused great turmoil in the relationship... For a while I chose too hang onto this and it made me a miserable and angry person. I was comfortable in my own SHIT! Then along the lines I realized that,  just wait a minute, if  I let go what will happen then and I wanted too fond out. I did not know what was out there, what I was letting go for, but as soon as I started I just wanted more of what was out there... And slowly but surely I became more free of SHIT! and its wonderful... 
Another lesson I actually came to realize not too long ago is that friendship is not determined by the distance, but by the love and care and it is OK too long for someone and it is OK too feel emotional about it. However I have learnt the lesson but it was only recently that I realized why.... There is a difference you see, learning it is one thing, but realizing it and what you do with that lesson and realization pretty much determines it :p The last few days I was stuck in a space that I felt going into my old ways, however I learnt that this is NOT who I want too be and too learn from the space that  I was in that I am still human and I shall still have emotion... 

So heres to feeling emotion and allowing yourself too feel and then take a step back and say you know what its ok. All is good in the land of Nod! Remeber to LOVE YOURSELF! Ot

 
Wow, it has been forever and a day since I have been on here and updated.
The past few months I have been on a journey of pure self discovery and spiritual enlightening. I can not begin to describe the wonders I have experienced and the lessons I have learnt...
Where do I begin... 


It all started helping my best friend help one of his friends move stuff... Now I am or rather was a closed and shit case with walls all around when it came to emotion. Well this friend of my friend, saw right through me. As time passed we spent more time together and her healing hands helped to heal me.. Then the day that changed my life, we went to the Buddhist temple in Bronkelspruit and for those of you who know that feeling, well there are no words, I became a soul with a body. I made a connection to my heart and soul and love became my foundation. I was no longer afraid of letting go. Slowly but surely I have released my distorted past and dealt with it.. and still to this day I am letting go more and more and with this an unbelievable amount of freedom came too me. A new sense of being. I became me... I was so overwhelmed by everything and just wanted more and more.... I learnt too slow down and just be! I have learnt to find the beauty in every situation and learnt that LOVE goes a long way... A lesson is too be learnt in everything we do and experience. No matter how messed up the situation may be, there is always a lesson, always. I no longer see the negative but the positive. However one of the most difficult lessons I am learning is that friendship is not determined by distance but by love... We grew very close over a short period of time and she became like my mom, she was and is my spiritual mom.  I wish you all the love and happiness on your new adventure! 


I know I still have a long way too go and there are many things to be learnt and experiences to be be experienced. and remember in the words of a very wise and great woman ♥ "LOVE ALWAYS" ♥

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